Saturday, May 24, 2008
what had i did for this past half year??
i have no idea... i've been waiting for UTAR resit exam.. but the exam have to wait until april... my foundation had already finish in december 2007.. wat am i going to do in these few months?? and so my dad ask me to take tour guide course... at start i really dun like it... even though i will pass and get tge liceinse.. but i still go step on tat field... but anything is i scare tat i might dun have the heart to continue my study if i go on a part time job... in tat course, there were many friends with ages from 20 till 50... haha... but everyone there doesnt care about thier ages and still hang out with us.. i learn may thing they teach me.. in that time there were many homework and have to train our talking skill too... i did try my best.. and i think i might pass the exam... who knows tat at the tour guide exam period i suddenly lack of confidence... i just dunno why.. so i delay it to august... is not a good decision... when i delay it, the principal ask me to go on new classes... but i always skip class and go hang out with some friends.. and then i wasted 2 months... there is one month tat i didnt even wanted to go to tat class... then my friend ask me to work for him.. i think and think.. hai... UTAR studies can be delay also de la... so i told my parents, they were so shock tat wat i told them... i was sad.. while for UTAR exam, does anyone will do revision without going class while u still have about 4 months of time?? i guess it will be only some.. i'm not a hardworking, but i'm always confidence on wat i do... At the end i get my lesson... i still cant get enough of CGPA... I started my revision on my own one week b4 exam... OMG!! who do i think am i?? A student with 4.0 CGPA?? A pro? now i'm regret... but luckily i still have 2nd chance.. this would be my last chance.. i'm already 20... Friends around me have finish thier diploma and going to advance.. UTAR friends went degree and finish sem 1... i'm still here... i'm still standing ground on the same spot... i must make a change.. "life should become better and not becoming worst" I MUST MAKE A CHANGE!!!!!
so i decided to use my 2nd chance to go MMU... i'll try and take diploma there... i must graduate.. as a promise to myself... in 2 years time... MMU i'm coming...
Wednesday, May 21, 2008
It wont happen again... i know i'm even more untrustful now... because i break such an important promise... i'm really regret... i really didnt expect tat Mr.8 will speak it out... sorry... its my fault too... i know i'm wrong... i dunno wat can i do to make a compensate.. i really care about tat promise... i really do... sorry for i'm being such and idiot telling tat Mr.8... It wont happen again....
I really really did hate ppl tat couldn't keep thier promise and break thier promise!!! Yet going around telling ppl and 8 !!! And so i hate myself for telling my secret between me and someone.. i really really hate myself for breaking such an important promise tat i made !!! it wont happen again.. it wont happen agian.. to tat "mr.8" i told u because i treat u as my very close buddy + nearly to brother.. but now.. i'm sorry, u wont get tat offer anymore... i wont tell u all of my stuff... i wont let u know what happen to me.. only will let u know something tat are useless and not related to my life... mr.8!!!! yes U!!!! but i know u wont be reading my blog!!!! but i still angry with wat u did... because u make me hate myself too.... CURSE U!!!!!!!!!!!
